It is in the moments of decision that your destiny is shaped.
We make decisions every single day of our lives. I think I could put a question mark at the end of just about everything I do. Should I go left or right? Do I want a Caramel Latte or a Chia Latte? Do I want 3 kids or 5 kids? Do I want to buy that shirt? Do I want to get married? Which path do I take with my career? I'm sure you've asked yourself the same things. Perhaps even asked yourself even bigger questions and made huge decisions that are completely and utterly life changing, maybe you're in the process of making some pretty big life changing decision or you're still in the thinking process.
Well, I made a pretty big decision this year. One that I have always wanted, and never thought it would be quite in reach to accomplish. I decided to pick up my entire life, sell my stuff, and live out of a suitcase. I decided to travel for a year, across Europe, Africa, Asia and South America. I don't have any friends doing it with me. Plus, I have to pack for a full year in one suitcase (for those of you who know me, you know that's going to be REALLY hard.) I've gotten some mixed responses, like: "Why would you leave all your friends?" and "I wish I could do something like that!" With each response, I find myself feeling all of the emotions, terrified and excited being the two most prevalent. But I also keep reminding myself that this is MY life and no one can change that.
Do I doubt my decision? ABSOLUTELY. Am I terrified? 100%, anything could go wrong. Every time I'm questioned I fall a little bit deeper into that fear and doubt. I think, I'm missing out on all the great things I could be experiencing in Chicago. I think, I'll miss my friends so much and what if this distance ruins out friendships. It's a constant question if I'm making the right decision, or am making a decision that I'll regret later. I could have made every excuse for myself to pull back from my dream. BUT, if I was afraid of the things that I want most in life, then I would have never accomplish any of the goals that seem so unreachable.
I realize I'm leaving my friends, but our friendships are strong and they now have the opportunity to come visit me. I can't base my life on what they want, nor can they base their lives on what I want. The opportunities that this experience will bring are nearly endless. New friendships, perspectives, cultural experiences and so much more lie ahead. There are so many positives that sit right by the side of those negative ones.
Lastly, to those people who respond with, "I wish I could do that". Well, I'm here to tell you that you can. You can do anything you put your mind too. Never did I think I'd get this opportunity, let alone work for a company that supports me while I go gallivanting across the world. The support they've shown me is unparalleled. If you have big dreams, just remember that they are achievable. If you want to travel the world, you CAN do it. If you want to move cities, you can do that too. It just depends on if you're willing to do what it takes to define your own destiny…